I was terrified of something under my bed or in my closet. This isn't unusual, but I wasn't afraid of monsters. I was afraid living people were in my closet waiting for my mother to leave to come out and get me. We had dolls that our family members gave us(NOT for playing with) that sat on a shelf in our room. They would put shadows on our walls and terrify me.
When I would have bad dreams, I remember laying flat in my bed holding my breath, because if they couldn't see me, they couldn't get me. I would lay there till I found the courage to jump out of my bed and run into my mothers room.
I remember once that my dad had gone outside to check on the dog and while I was running across the hall, I caught a glimpse of him out of the corner of my eye. That terrified me more. So i jumped into my moms bed screaming which scared her. Now it is funny, but it wasn't then.
I had a similar experience the other night. My mother and I were coming back from my riding lesson in Henderson. My friends car was at Panera so I had taken her to her car. I would have thought mom would have beaten me home. I was pulling in my drive way talking to my friend on the phone. I looked in the rear view and saw car lights. I flipped out! I sped up, slammed my car into park(halfway parked in the right spot), and ran into the house screaming my head off. "SOMEONE FOLLOWED ME HOME, SOMEONE FOLLOWED ME HOME!" However, my dad wasn't much help because he was in the shower. So I wait. And then... I hear the garage door. It was my mother. Here I was nearly in tears because who follows you all the way home and my mother should have beaten me. She thought it was funny, but I was very upset!
Friday, December 10, 2010
what are you thankful for?
I am so thankful for my family. I have the best family anyone could ask for. We are not always perfect, and we fight, but I know I am loved. I love that I get to see my grandparents every weekend and spend time with them. My grandmother is the most caring and giving person I know. She is always there to give a helping hand and a treat. My granfather (A.K.A Bop) although stubborn, he is very loving and cares for his family. He would do anything for us. Those are my fathers parents and I get to see them all the time. Less often, however, I see my moms mom and step-dad. They love to travel and are almost never home. My real granddad died of cancer before I was born so Ray has been the fill in. My mom calls him her extra-father. My nanna is crazy but always makes you laugh. Ray is also a funny man and very kind.
No matter what kind of family you have, it is always great to have one and I am VERY thankful for mine.
No matter what kind of family you have, it is always great to have one and I am VERY thankful for mine.
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
"May the Force be With You"
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=1%20samual%2017&version=NIV
This scripture is of David and Goliath. David was a Shepard and his three older brothers were away at war. David shows great courage and belief in this passage. He knew that he could take on the giant because he had killed lions and bears that had attacked his sheep. He stated that he could do it because God was helping him. Saul didn't have much faith in him. Saul didn't think that David was strong enough to beat the giant. David beat him with a sling and a stone. This reminds me of the song, Voice of Truth, by Casting Crowns. In one part of it, it says...
"Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me"
We have to listen to what story God is telling us. He is the ONLY Voice of Truth. You can accomplish anything you set your mind to. You just have to know that God is with you and He will bring you through. "For nothing is impossible with God." -Luke 1:37. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline." 1 Timothy 1:7. "But a spirit of power," so we have the power to do anything for Him and with Him. God has great plans. He doesn't need us to do them, He is the Lord of the Universe, but He chooses to use us and impact the world. The world is going to bring you down and tell you that you aren't good enough, but that is not the Voice of Truth. Don't listen to it. You are perfect in the eyes of God. He made you how He wanted to you and made you the person you are. He has a plan for you, just listen and obey.
This scripture is of David and Goliath. David was a Shepard and his three older brothers were away at war. David shows great courage and belief in this passage. He knew that he could take on the giant because he had killed lions and bears that had attacked his sheep. He stated that he could do it because God was helping him. Saul didn't have much faith in him. Saul didn't think that David was strong enough to beat the giant. David beat him with a sling and a stone. This reminds me of the song, Voice of Truth, by Casting Crowns. In one part of it, it says...
"Oh what I would do to have
The kind of strength it takes to stand before a giant
With just a sling and a stone
Surrounded by the sound of a thousand warriors
Shaking in their armor
Wishing they'd have had the strength to stand
But the giant's calling out my name and he laughs at me
Reminding me of all the times I've tried before and failed
The giant keeps on telling me
Time and time again, "Boy, You'll never win!"
"You'll never win!"
But the Voice of Truth tells me a different story
The Voice of Truth says, "Do not be afraid!"
And the Voice of Truth says, "This is for My glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe
The Voice of Truth
But the stone was just the right size
To put the giant on the ground
And the waves they don't seem so high
From on top of them lookin' down
I will soar with the wings of eagles
When I stop and listen to the sound of Jesus
Singing over me"
We have to listen to what story God is telling us. He is the ONLY Voice of Truth. You can accomplish anything you set your mind to. You just have to know that God is with you and He will bring you through. "For nothing is impossible with God." -Luke 1:37. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-discipline." 1 Timothy 1:7. "But a spirit of power," so we have the power to do anything for Him and with Him. God has great plans. He doesn't need us to do them, He is the Lord of the Universe, but He chooses to use us and impact the world. The world is going to bring you down and tell you that you aren't good enough, but that is not the Voice of Truth. Don't listen to it. You are perfect in the eyes of God. He made you how He wanted to you and made you the person you are. He has a plan for you, just listen and obey.
Motivations
So I was trying to post my devotionals every day on Facebook. It's not working out at all! I have posted three times. I don't really know how to fix this problem. But I'm going to have to come up with something. I feel like I always have something else that HAS to be done so I never have time to just sit down. This morning on KLove they were talking about how in order to get something accomplished, you have to find what motivates you. Money is always a good motivator, but that's not going to work. I don't need to get paid for something that I should do. The host was trying to loose wait and she found that money, competition, and helping others are what motivates her. She asked some of her friends to donate money for every pound she lost. She has about 200 people that agreed to go so. And she has lost 21 pounds and is going for 30 by the end of December. Every penny that she gets, is being donated to feed kids who are starving. I just think that is the best idea ever. She is working for something that she wants, something that she will not get any material award for, but a reward in knowing that she helped feed 600 kids. That means a dollar feeds a kid. That's one coke that you don't get this week or today. For me, I could care less about cokes since I don't drink them; but it would be no new shirt for the month.
So, I'm working on what I should do to motivate me. The simple fact that I was reaching out to other people on Facebook was enough motivation at first. It's not that that motivation is gone, but it doesn't have the same effect. In my mind, if I set my status to the current KLove song, or a bible verse, that it does the same thing. It may, but I truly I know that the postings about my devotional give much more thought and care.
So, I'm working on what I should do to motivate me. The simple fact that I was reaching out to other people on Facebook was enough motivation at first. It's not that that motivation is gone, but it doesn't have the same effect. In my mind, if I set my status to the current KLove song, or a bible verse, that it does the same thing. It may, but I truly I know that the postings about my devotional give much more thought and care.
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