Last Blog!

Dear Mrs. Matthews,
This will probably be my last blog ever. I more than likely will never blog again. It has been fun, but like my diary entries, I don't think I could make this last much longer. I hope you have enjoyed at least some of my posts. I try to make them entertaining and fun topics, which your interesting ideas always help! This is the end of my blogging and the start of something else that has yet to be figure out...
I have enjoyed blogging and I definately suggest that you keep doing these next year. I like that it gives us time to think about what we are feeling and the freedom we have to blog about whatever we please. You are an awesome teacher and I have loved having you this year! Thank you so much for all that you do for us. You have the perfect amount of strictness to keep the class in order and the right amount of easy going to make the class fun and interesting.
Thank you again,
Ellie :)

Jay's Graduation! :)

I leave tomorrow to go to San Antonio and I cannot wait! I haven't seen Jay in 8 1/2 weeks and I am so ready! We fly out tomorrow evening and we get to see him on Thursday. He will do a group mile run and then he gets to hang out with us until 8 at night. Then on Friday, he will actually graduate from boot camp then spend more time with us! He gets most of the day on Saturday and then Sunday morning. I am going down there with his grandparents and we are meeting up with his mom, step dad, and aunt. I know those 4 days are going to go by so fast, and that is the part I dread. The past 9 weeks have seemed like forever but I am so thankful for my friends that have been there for me and helped me stay focused and happy. They have kept me busy and my find off of him being gone and not being able to talk to him. I will get to see him for this weekend and then he will be gone to tech school for 4-6 months. Thats 2-3 times longer than what he has already been gone. I have made myself promise the same thing I promised myself before he left. That is that I will make the most of my time and I won't spend it worrying about having to say goodbye again or how much longer I have to spend with him. It will only make the weekend miserable and not fun. That is not the memory I want to have. He doesn't need that either. So positive thinking is my goal! I can't wait to see him and actually have a conversation with him face to face. My letters that have turned out to be conversations with myself because he has no time to write, and his 20 minute phone calls that were never enough time were also not enough. I am looking forward to this weekend and have for the past 8 1/2 weeks! I can't wait :)

Prom 2011

I had so so so much fun at prom! One of my best friends, Graham Duncan and I went together. Of course there was the whole pre-prom prep that had to be done. Elizabeh Owen and I went to get our nails done the day before, which was a zoo. We finished off Prom Eve by going to the Tamarak Carnival for a while and then heading back to her house to lay in the tanning bed. The next morning we were up bright and early to be good Student Councilains and decorate for prom. Afterwards I headed to my Nana's for a morning nap before I was to get my hair done. Finally, I headed home and put on my make-up and dress, which was the easiest part. My favorite part was the shoes. We wore lime green converses with our fancy attire. I of couse, had to have sparkly shoe laces. And the best part is, you can wear them again! (Like a bridesmaid dress...except these are better.) We definately looked fly! Graham and Connor Anderson came to get me, we took pictures, then headed to Elizabeth Owens house where we took more pictures before we could finally head to Derek Austins house to take even more pictures and finally eat! We only had to make one detour, and that was to save our poor, innocent, dear lost friends, Christina and Jacob. I would first like to point out that Derek Austins house is VERY easy to find. You go straight down a highway and only make one turn to get into his driveway. But, apparently, that can be confusing. So, Elizabeth and I, knowing our way around Utica backwards, had to figure out where they were, how to get to them, and help them get back to Dereks. It turned out they were only 3 or 4 miles down the road.  We finally got to Dereks, took more pictures, and ATE! Mrs. Austin is an amazing cook! We had steak, chicken, shrimp, baked potatoes, and rolls. Then, the desert table! Yes, it had its own table. So many cakes, chocolate, pies, and ice cream! It was sooo good! We had some time to kill so we headed down to the basement and played Apples to Apples with 12 people, which was interesting. Graham, Connor, Elizabeth and I then headed to my Nanas to take, of course, more picture and then we were finally off to prom! It was almost perfect! I loved dancing even though it mainly by myself but thats ok! My group isn't into the grinding on eachother haha. Some people awkwardly stood there which doesn't make it very fun, I prefer to dance! The secret is, that there isn't a secret to dancing, so it's best to just do your own thing. Some people haven't been let in on that secret yet so they think they look dumb when they dance. But, its prom and for most it only happens twice so might as well make the best of it!

WWW

Hi, My name is Ellison Humphrey and I am addicted to Facebook. I spend so much time online, mainly because I'm nosy. I like to see what everyone is doing and look at their pictures. Facebook is really the only thing I am on a majority of the time. I don't normally play a lot of games on my phone or on the computer. All I do is text and get on Facebook. I am obsessed with updating my news feed and seeing if I have any new notifications. I wish I had unlimited data because my out-of-wifi use is limited. However, that may be a good thing. I would like to know what makes Facebook so intriguing and why I feel the need to be constantly updated. I have tried to take breaks from it for a little while and limit myself, but it never works. However, in my obsession of wanting to constantly check my Facebook, I can carry on a normal conversation and have a life. So, in my opinion, my addiction is not as a bad as some. :)

IPhone

I absolutely love my IPhone. It definately would be the coolest and most helpful technology I use. I can access pretty much anything I need in my hand at any time. I have tons of apps that I can use for games, internet, Facebook, the Bible, dictionary, the weather, and so much more! I am connected to everyone I need through texting or calling them. Texting is the handiest thing to me! I use it to remind my mom of something or see what she is doing. I am constantly talking to my friends on my phone. It almost never leaves me, which is sad. I upload pictures to Facebook all the time, and stalk my friends occasionally. It would be hard to imagine not having my IPhone!

2010-2011 in a Nut-shell!

1. Every Blue day of my life!
2. I became an aunt and sister
3. I started dating Jay Foster
4. Being married and devorced every other day to Luke Camp
5. Cream Puffs! and Janie showing us her purple underwear
6. Janies food!
7. Going to prom with my BFF Graham Duncan
8. Wrapping and decorating Connor Andersons yard with Christmas decorations and the many other times we got his yard!
9. Tennis Sleepover- Llama promise!
10. Kentucky making it to the Final 4 and supporting them in Panama with Elizabeth Owen!

Childhood Lesson

Never use a screw driver in the upright position to make a whole in a box for your playhouse.
If you have ever noticed the cut in my left eyebrow, you know probably understand what happened. I was about 5 or 6 when it happened. My sister, Cynthia Turner, and her little sister Rachel were all trying to make a playhouse in our garage right after we had moved. We had tons of boxes and had just watched Out of the Box and decided we wanted our own play house. We were going to pile up the boxes and poke holes in them so we could have umbrellas poking out of the top. We tried to use the bottoms of the umbrellas to poke the holes, but it wasn't working very well. My sister had the great idea to use a screw driver to poke the holes. So the caring seven year old she was, she gave her five year old little sister a screw driver to poke a hole. I attempted to poke the whole in a downwards motion through the box. When it wouldn't work, me in my five year old little mind told myself that I could just try to poke it upward through the opposite side of the box. After thrusting the weapon into the box 3 or 4 times, it finally came all the way through. Since I was leaned over the box to see when the sharped edged object would come through, it went straight up into my eyebrow. Panic struck and I flipped out! I was, of course, bleeding and thought I was going to die. My dad came to my rescue and patched me up. Luckily, I didn't 1) lose my eye and 2) have to have stitches. I got really lucky and I learned never to poke an object upward towards your face!

Spring Break 2011!

Elizabeth and I had a lot of fun over Spring Break. We laid on the beach for seven days straight. It was awesome! I love that time to just relax and catch up on sleep (and get some color.) At night we went shopping, spent way to much money, and finished the night off with some chocolate covered bananas finished with crushed oreos. They sound weird, but they are soooo good! It was a little windy, but still warm.
We were luckily away from the party end of Panama. However, we did have to drive through  it to get to Pier Park to shop. One night it took Elizabeth and I an hour to go 8 miles! It was insane! There were teenagers everywhere. They were walking in the middle of the road like they were invinsible and the car wasn't going to run over them. If you honked your horn or yelled at them to get out of the way, they yelled back cussing and throwing boxes at your car. Where they got boxed I have no idea. Some people just approached your car and tried to talk to you. One kid actually smacked our back window. I would have gotten out and shared my not-so-kind thoughts with him on how he should move out of the way because the road was made for vehichles and the sidewalk and grass was for him, but I was afriad he was going to jump me or something. A few other people tried to come have a conversation with us while we were driving and I think I pushed the lock button at least 100 times. There was anywhere from middle schoolers to college kids walking in the street. I understand high schoolers and college kids being out but I would really like to know where the 12 and 13 year old parents were. Who would let their kid go down there. It wasn't even really like a party at a certain place. Get this, the cool thing to do was walk up and down the road... I don't get it. How is that fun? Shopping sounds way more amusing to me. Everytime they walked by someone they would scream as a greeting.. It was a zoo! A few days later, we were talking to someone we knew and they told us there was a way around all the mess.. That would have been good information earlier. The traffic was so slow that we would pass these two boys, and then they would walk by. It happened at least five times.
Other than the caos, the trip was amazing! I love the beach! We also road go-carts and did this surfing imitation ride. This guy controlled how fast the board moved and we had to try to stay on. It was quite a show. We also did the trampoline thing where they have you harnessed to bunji cords. I'm pretty sure I lost some brain cells from flipping so much! It was fun though. And we had some pretty awesome food! I don't eat sea food, but everything I ate was so good! I had a reese's waffle that was amazing. It could have been even better if all of the chocolate and peanut butter peices weren't all in the middle.
Spring Break 2011 overall was a success!

Spring Break Here I Come!

I was so disapointed this morning when I woke up and realized it was Wednesday instead of Thursday. I am so ready to be done with school for the next week I can hardly stand it. I am migrating down to Panama along with the rest of Owensboro with my best friend Elizabeth Owen and her parents. We are going to be away from the party end, but we will still have fun. Elizabeth and I don't get as crazy as some teenagers our age. We would rather spend our time remembering what is happening and going shopping. My status last night was "Can it be Spring Break already? I need a break, the beach, and some sleep!" I have been physically and emotionally drained recently and I can't wait to reload. I love the sound of the ocean and I love being warm. At first the weather was looking sketchy for next week, but it has changed and there is only a chance of rain one day! Its going to be warm and sunny the rest of the time!
Elizabeth and I are going to stay up all night Thursday packing and getting ready for the trip so we can sleep in the car the whole way. I'm not really for sure how well that is going to work out, especially since I have to drive my self to my hair appointment on Friday before we leave.
I'm looking forward to coming back with lots of stories to blog about!

911 emergency

If you were in an emergency who would you call first and why?
Well, it depends on the emergency on who I would call. If I was on the side of the road, upside down, bleeding out of my head, I would probably call 911 and then my mom. Not that she would answer, because she never does; therefore, my life is in the better hands of the emergency crew. If my car was blowing smoke and my tire was 2 miles back, I would probably call my dad. He knows everything there is to know about cars. He could tell me how to fix it and where the nearest Auto Zone was. If I was having a fashion emergency, I would call Elizabeth Owen because together, we know everything there is to know about clothes. With both of our heads together, we could come up with a solution. If I was being jumped, I would call my sister Amber and then my boyfriend Jay because with the two of them together, I would not want to fight me anymore. If I was on an airplane that had been hijacked and I got one phone call, I would probably just send out a mass text message because there are too many people to call and none of them I can rely on enough to answer there phone. If I was arrested, I would call my Bop. My dad and uncle have gotten in enough trouble and I know I could convince him or my grandmother to come get me.
And... If I saw a ghost, I would probably call GHOST BUSTERS!

If I had more time...

If I had time, and he was here, I would spend time with Jay. One thing I wish I had more of, was time to spend with him before he left. Between my busy schedule and his, we didn't get to see eachother as much as we hoped. He was busy telling people goodbye and I was busy with my family, tennis, and riding. I would take time to replay the last day that we had together. We went to church, my grandparents house, then his grandparents house and watched movies and hung out. Suprisingly, we didn't stress (till the end) about him leaving. I would rather just skip me having to leave. It's weird not having him texting me or calling me. I got so used to telling him about everything, and now I just have to wait for a letter. But, I can do it, and I can't wait for him to come back.

No Bake Reese's Gone Wrong!

Last year, Christina Faulls and I were hanging out. After a long and stressful week at school, we were finally taking a breather. We decided we were having a chocolate craving and chocolate always makes you feel better, so we went to Wal-mart and discovered the best thing known to man… No Bake Reese’s. We were convinced that this was going to be so easy to do and it was going to be so delicious. We were so excited and couldn’t wait to get home to make our masterpiece and enjoy this chocolate peanut-buttery goodness! We rushed home, and through the door, so excited to show my parents our new found treasure. They didn’t find all that exciting, which didn’t matter; it meant more for us!

In a rush to get it thrown together and into the fridge, we might have maybe, somehow, messed up a few of the directions. At the time, it seemed like we were doing it all right. The simple 3-5 directions could not have been that difficult. Our problem was not in the actual reading of the directions, we just didn’t read the labels on the packages. So, the filling and the crust got mixed up. Our beautiful masterpiece had been ruined.  While making it, we noticed it wasn’t going as well as we planned and non-baking should not be this difficult. But, we thought we were doing it right, so we stuck it in the fridge. Taking our showers and getting ready for bed, we were so excited to try the should-have-been yumminess…It was AWFUL and our little hearts were broken. So, in trying to make up for the ruined batch, we have made it again, this time, hopefully doing it right!

Relaxation

My favorite form of relaxation, is the relaxation pose. Mrs. Johnson taught it to us in biomechanics and when paired with the perfect music, it can be the best thing known to man. It is perfect after a long work out of P90X or Insanity. You lay on the floor, palms up and to your side, your legs straight out, and your eyes closed. Focusing on your breathing, you realx every inch of your body especially the muscles you have just been working. I love also doing this when I can't sleep, counting sheep never really worked for me. My favorite thing to listen to is the nature music app on my phone. I love to mix the sound of the ocean and rain. It's heavenly.

Jay Foster

in your opinion what is the perfect personality? why are these qualities important to you?
do you posses any of these qualities? do your friends or family? which?

Jay Foster is the most caring, supportive, generous, respectful guy I have ever met. He opens every car door, resturaunt door, and house door for me. He is the perfect gentleman, most guys these days aren't. He speaks his mind and isn't afraid to share his opinion, but at the same time he is still respectful of everyone else's. We have been friends for three years and just recently started dating. Going into it, I knew that he was shortly going to be leaving for boot camp, and that day is today. He flies out some at some point and this afternoon will be the last time I get to talk to him for a while. He is joining the air force and will be working on the planes, figuring out what is wrong and how to fix it. Sunday was when I had to tell him bye in person and it was so hard even though the rest of the day had been amazing and we had been able to hang out the whole day. This afternoon I am going to have to tell him bye...again, just not in person. He will be at basic for 8 1/2 weeks. I going to his graduation mid-May and his grandparents and I will get to see him for 48 hours before he leaves for A-school for 4 months. I just found out last night that his training was 4 months instead of 6 which is AH-MAZING! I wrote about him in my Alchemist essay saying how it was hard for me to say goodbye and how I had been stressing about it. I tried so hard not to focus on him leaving and focus on the fun that we could have. It would have ruined the past few days we had together if we had been down about the situation. Instead, we had to make each other laugh and enjoy the time.
It was so easy to start a relationship with someone who you have been friends with for so long. I think it's important to have that friendship built up so you know if they are someone you are interested in dating. A lot of times, people start dating someone they barely know, which is probably why teenage relationships are wrongly centered and don't last very long. Personalities play a major role when you are picking someone you are going to date, or they should. Physical appearance isn't going to get you anywhere. You have to have similar interests, morals, and values. My mom has three rules that any boy that we bring home had to meet. Rule #1. They have to have good morals and values
Rule #2. They have to have respect
Rule #3. Last but not least, they have to treat us like the princess we are ;)
Jay definately meets all three of those rules. Even though people might think its a bad or crazy idea, I do what makes me happy and I am very happy with him.

lazy days

My ideal lazy days are after waking up around noon I would stay in my pajamas all day long while I lay on the couch and watch infinite episodes and CSI, NCIS, and House. I won't do any laundry, homework, or clean my room. I will eat cereal for every meal just because it is one of the easiest meals known to man. I would prefer Special K fruit and yogurt, but Honey Nut Cheerios works too. Every few hours I would take a nap then wake up and watch more TV. Oh yeah, and I would be home ALONE! That's definitely something that hasn't happened in a while. There are way too many people coming in and out of my house recently.
I used to have similar days to this, but by six I was ready to go out and do something. So on this day, whenever I feel like it, I would take a long shower and eventually go hang out with some people.
But, I don't think this is going to happen any time soon, unfortunately. :(

Fear- The Alchemist

* Pg. 76 “People need not fear the unknown if they are capable of achieving what they need and want. We are afraid of losing what we have, whether it’s our life or our possessions and property. But this fear that we have evaporates when we understand that our life stories and the history of the world were written by the same hand. ” This passage describes how some of the characters in the novel never went after their Personal Legend because they were happy where they were. They had planted themselves in a certain place, made it home, and were afraid of losing it all if they left or changed. The crystal merchant never went after his Personal Legend because he never trusted anyone with his shop. He also had the fear that he would be disappointed with what he saw if he went. The characters don’t realize that someone has been there before. They have to learn that God is writing their life story, and He has been writing people’s life stories since the beginning. This is a growing point for the character on their journey to their Personal Legend.

                I love this quote because in our society today, people are very attached to things of this world. They think that matters of this world are what are most important. We get so wrapped up in our jobs or sports that we lose sight of what is really important. They set it up high on their list of importance and won’t bring it down because they are afraid of losing everything they have to reach for what is most worth it. I think this passage makes the reader take a step back and examine their self and what they find most important in life. The reader has to ask their selves what they would most not want to give up, even to achieve their Personal Legend. It gives them an even stronger connection with the characters of this novel. I am very wrapped up in things of this world. I am so afraid of losing those things sometimes. I don’t really understand why. I wish that I could say that I am the perfect Christian and that I don’t put anything before God. But it’s not true. There are many things that block me from having a perfect relationship with him. I realize that it is my own stubbornness and laziness and not him. I spend more time on Facebook then I do in my Bible, which I know I shouldn’t. I could be so much better than I am if I would focus less on possessions and property to achieve what I need most.

NO, NO, NO!

1. Never in a million years!
2. You can't make me!
3. I have never...
4. I WILL never!
5. When pigs fly
6. Not a chance
7. Over my dead body
8. That's a negative!
9. I think not!
10. YOUR CRAZY!

This is a good idea. My (extra) nephew is almost two and he knows the word "NO" very well. He has a look that could kill that goes right along with it! We are looking for ways for us to tell him not to do something, instead of saying. "No, no Jordan," so that he will stop saying it. Things like, "Thats not nice," or "we dont do that." They seem to help. I think part of the problem is he just can't say "yes" or "please." Haha

Polar Bear Plunge

I participated in the Polar Bear Plunge this weekend. It was quite an experience. I had watched my sister do it one year, so I thought I knew what to expect... Yeah RIGHT! The wait to jump in shorts and a t-shirts in the cold snowy wind seemed to take days, and the jump... was AWFUL! I can't even explain how it felt. My body didn't know what to do. I for real thought I wasn't going to be able to get out of the water. When I hit the latter, the icy wind hit me which felt great! As soon as I got off the latter, I sprinted for the toasty heated van. My toes were numb, and I felt like I was out of my body. It was all over when I finally made it back into the Hines Center and into the steam room.. But hey, "I'm freezin for a reason!"

My Bop

My Bop is very valuable to me. He is hard-headed and sometimes mean to my Grandmother, but he is full of love. I’m sure that the grandkids have softened his heart, but I love him just the way he is. He is a hardworking man. Bop always has cuts and bruises on his hands where he has smashed his fingers.  He never likes to sit still. Fishing and working in his shop are his favorite things. I get to see him and my grandmother every Sunday when we go to their house for lunch. My favorite time of the year is summer when I get to go to his lake and swim. He built a huge lake on his property for the grandkids with a rope swing that he goes off of. It scares my sister to death and she won’t watch him go off.  He is just like a kid again when he is on his lake. Although he is very active and moving, he is getting old and has health problems. He is diabetic and worn down.  He takes handfuls of pills every day, but if they are helping him, it’s ok with me. I don’t know what I would do without my Bop.

I'm an Aunt!

I have mentioned that we have a girl that is a foster family that we had taken in. They had spent the weekend with us many times, but went to their other foster home during the week. She had always told us some things that she didn't like about her foster mom, but she had lived there. This past weekend, her social worker had her move in with us. I was pretty excited. Since my sister is away at college, I'm the only kid at home so I spend a lot of time out with my friends. But now, there is another 17 year old girl, an 19 month old, and a 3 month old at my house. In two days our house went from calm to crazy. It's not a bad crazy. I can definately get used to the baby falling asleep in my arms. I have always wanted a younger brother or sister, but they work just fine. They are the cutest little boys ever.
We went to get her around noon on Saturday, and she was so excited when we got there. We decided we needed to be professional movers because we fit 3 peoples things into the back of a truck, and there was a lot! Tons of diapers, clothes, more diapers, a stroller, and lots of toys. We got her moved into my sisters old room. Between the baby lotion that my mom had and what she had, we ended up with 8 bottles... so I think we are good on that for a while!
I really am looking forward to us hanging out. There is just one thing that bothers me. I feel REALLY bad about leaving her at home to go hang out with my friends. But everyone keeps reminding me that she does have 2 kids to take care of. I just wish she could still have the freedom that I do to be a teenager.

This Sucks!

When you lose a game, don’t like a movie, or are grounded, you may use the phrase, “this sucks!”  When one is unhappy about something, they can use it… around their friends. However, an adult will probably find it very rude and disrespectful. Other phrases that could be used are, “What a bummer,” “darn,” or “that stinks.” “This sucks!” should not be used around someone who has prepared a meal that you may not like or has just given you a present. This is a time you should probably thank them or be quiet. Some people these days, however, don’t know when to use the phrase at the right time.

Trying New Things

I like trying new things. I'm pretty open to trying a lot of things unless I know it it wrong or it is going to cause me body harm. Recently, I have picked up tenis. I am not very good at it yet, but I am working on it. I don't plan on giving up either. I know some people who don't like to try new things and if it doesn't come to them quick or turns out to be a lot of work, they give up.
I am also open to new people. I think that being friends with a variety of people is a good thing. I love meeting new people and getting to know them. One of my best friends Gracie goes to McLean County, but we love hanging out with eachothers friends. I go places with hers and she goes places with mine. We are both the types that we can get along with pretty much anyone. I have tons of opurtunities to meet new people. When there is a new Chrysalis flight, there are always new people. When I go to camp in the summer, it's never the exact same people. I think this is a good side of change.

Criticism

I try not to judge people, but i think at some point, we all have judged. Most of the time it is a prejudgement before we have walked their mile. We are a foster family and we don't always know alot about the kids situation. Recently we took in a teenager and her two sons. I knew she had been taken out of her home, but I didn't know why. The fact that she had two kids was an autoatic surprise. I didn't want to make any assumptions about her, but everyone was saying she must be trouble. Not knowing her home life or situation, there was no way I could judge her and if she was going to be staying with us then I needed to be open. I'm glad that I stayed open and got to know her. I would consider us really close. And I hate the weekends when she doesn't come over. She has been to so many of our family functions, including 2 Christmas parties. I love her boys like they are my little brothers. It goes to show, you can't judge someone until you really know them.

Who Am I?

I think that mainly everyone strives to be their best. Most of the time, that is what I want. I want the most of life. Recently, some of my friends have showed me how to relax and more carefree, instead of worrying all the time. Its kind of odd that we are writing about who we want to be because this morning I was thinking about how much I love kids and can't wait to be a mom. I know its a little early, but when I'm older, married, and have a career I am going to have kids. Some people know they were born doctors or whatever, but I know that I want kids. (But NOT now!) Sometimes, when my parents make me mad, I make a mental list of how I am going to handle the situation differently when I'm in their position. My parents most of the time, don't like to listen to my side of the story when they are mad. But, I think that you can't really solve the problem until you hear what the other one thinks. And when someone yells at me, I don't hear a word they say. It's probably because I'm thinking about how they weren't listening to what I had to say. ;)
 I hope that I can learn to be patient and calm and know how to get my point across painfree.
But, at the moment, I am a 17 year old girl. I love God, my family, and my friends. I am either at school, with my friends, or thinking about how much I want to be riding. It has been a month since I rode last, and it is definately getting to me. Riding horses is so peaceful for me, even though it's a lot of work, it is worth it in the end when I get to ride bareback to cool him down. I love jumping and going fast. I hate falling off. I love playing pranks on my friends, and laughing till we can't breathe. I love movie nights and late nights. I love the foster kids that are constantly coming and going to our house. I love my bed. I love my mom and my dad. (Even though we fight sometimes, I couldn't live without them.) I even love my sister like crazy who I can't ever seen to get along with. I love working out and I'm learning to love tenis. I LOVE my grandmothers food and laying on the couch with my Bop. I love my cousin Hadley who is connected to my hip every Sunday for about 2 hours. And I love Gatlin who I am always wresling with. I love my moms side of the family too, even though they are off their rockers. I love summer, especially when I'm at Loucon. I love laying out and playing in the ocean. I love wearing flipflops, tanktops, and shorts. I love campfires and riding 4-wheelers.
I have a lot to be thankful for :)

"Its all in the way the you say it"

My mother is constantly telling me that I need to watch how I say something. You would think that it would be what I am saying. Sometimes it probably is a little of both. This reminded me of what our discussion was last night at youth group. He talked about James 1:19- "My brothers, take note of this. Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry." That is the opposite of how most humans react when in an argument. We half way listen to what someone is telling us becuase the whole time they are talking we are thinking about what we can say in response to them... Not that I do this or anything...
Actually, I am told alot that I have a smart mouth. This could be a compliment, but coming from my parents it's probably not. We always want to have the last word in, whether we want to admit it or not. No one likes being wrong.
So how do we controll our anger? Everyone gets angry, but it is up to us to decide how we handle it. We are the ones that decide if something is going to make us feel happy, sad, angry, or even awkward. Last night, my youth leader told us that the next time we are angry, we should sing a song. He said, "You simply can't sing a song and be mad. It's impossible. And if you are too mad to start singing, then that is when your anger is a problem and you need to fix it." You shouldn't get so angry that you can't find your favorite song and sing. There are a lot of times that a song can change my whole outlook or even mood. Most of the time KLove puts me in a better mood. There are also many times that it has helped me to see how to handle a situation or what to do. I think music is a lot of peoples get a way. Music is comforting. I think that God speaks to us through music.

What will come...

The year 2010 was very filled. There are so many experiences and stories that i could not possibly get them all down. So, instead, i am going to talk about what i want to achieve in the next year. As of today, I will find out in approximately 2 hours and 53 minutes, if i will be going to GSP. I am so nervous and have already cried twice out of stress. I know its not the end of the world, but it is my future. If I make it, I will be spending 5 weeks of my summer on a college campus. It will be a great experience and pay for my college! Between now and then, I will be finishing up my junior year. Its crazy how fast it has gone. I remember kindergarten like it was last week. Prom is coming up and I'm super excited! I went to prom last year, but not at Apollo. I already have my dress for this year, all I need are shoes, flowers, and a date. ;) The first few weeks of summer, will be spent hanging out with my friends and walking around barefoot. I so ready to not have shoes on. I know its very hickish, but I love walking around in the grass with no shoes. Then hopefully I will head off to a college. When I come back, I will probably spend a week or two counseling at Camp Loucon. That is my favorite place to be. It's basically my second home. If I don't get GSP, then most of my weeks will be spent at camp. Then in August I will start my last first day of school. How depressing?! I will be soaking up every moment i possibly can of the fun times. In October, I will officially be legal! I have a feeling that 2011 is going to be a great year!